Breathing Room

Today was

Not the best day, but I got some great writing done yesterday so I'm really proud of myself. I have a huge headache that I can't seem to shake. I woke up feeling unsure about the day and prepared myself to go to church. Then trouble entered in the form of me and Dave and suddenly I couldn't cope with going to church. I like this church. The pastor gives great messages and I feel comfortable there yet at the same time I feel disconnected. I don't know anyone there and I usually go and leave right after. Feeling the way I was feeling I didn't want to also deal with feeling like a stranger. I know that was probably the place I should have been but I couldn't go. So I packed my bag to go to the gym -the gym! On Sunday! Very out of character for me. I drove all the way down there and then I turned as if I was looking for parking and drove straight back home. My upstairs neighbor has been blasting music since 6:00 p.m. and its now 8:00. This is a first. It's one of those days. No writing today - but I did learn that classical music helps me write. Maybe it'll calm me down too - let me find out.