I am Nobody

I miss humans

For some reason it seems that I am at a time in my life where everyone has someone. Everyone is dating someone, and I am dating no one. Interestingly enough, I don't really want to be dating someone, I just want someone. It is actually quite hard to explain. But the lack of human contact in my life is slowly getting to me. Some days I just want someone to touch me, anyone really. But I can't its too hard; my fear of human contact holds me back. I don't really understand why I can't hug people without feeling dirty, or lean back on a sofa. It is sadly just something I have gotten use to. Lately though I have had weird urges to just lay back and forget about the germs, but I know I can't. And if I was to lay down on something one day, that wasn't clean, I don't know what I would do. But I am tempted to do it, but I know I can't.