Mental Meanderings

*yawns* RL intervention

It's already late and RL has been too hectic today and will continue to be for the next few days so I'm just throwing in a quick entry for the sake of making my calender over there pretty.

Usually I try and focus on my writing in my blog here but today I'm going to deviate and do one of those "what I did today" type things that many people, myself included, hate. *grins*

The good news is my day wasn't like other days. You see at 9AM this morning I had a bathroom. *nods sagely* Yes, very interesting, a bathroom, I had one. At 10AM I didn't have a bathroom. *jaw drops* It was gone, there was a whole that had a room-like shape of sorts, but there was only half a floor, and no walls, and no door. There were taps with no sink, pipes with no bath, and you could look through the floor to the sand under my house.

*grins* Yes, renovations in full swing. It's wonderful to be watching the progression. Even if the early stages of renovation is destructive it feels creative. You can't create something new and beautiful until you've cleared the way. Today we cleared the way. It didn't really take an hour to clear the room completely, it took most of the day for that. It did take an hour to turn what was a bathroom into something that could no longer bare the title.

I didn't get much work done today because along with keeping my kids out of the way we were contending with jackhammers, drills, and the shattering of panel walls. But in a way I'm getting to use my creativity anyway. Applying it to my home instead of the black on white I usually reserve it for.

After the workmen had knocked off for the day I got myself dolled up. Tonight my mother, sister, and I went out. My exhusband came and babysat. That task involved watching them eat their dinner and put them into bed two hours later and then play games and watch TV for five more hours. Anyway, three women, out on the town.

For me it's something I don't remember ever doing. I'd never been to a comedy club although I'd treated my exhusband to Jimoen when we were still married, and once my two sisters and my mother went to see Straussman. Tonight we went out for a very lovely dinner and I didn't begrudge the cost of the meal. For once in my life I was comfortable paying $30 for a meal for one person. I certainly couldn't afford to do that frequently but as a once off it was a delightful treat.

After dinner we went upstairs to the comedy club and enjoyed three hours of stand up comedy. All amateur and some terrible but others were great. I really enjoyed the whole night and it was fantastic to get out and spend an evening with adults doing something people my age usually do. It feels like something I'd missed out on starting a family so young. I've never been clubing, or to the casino, I've never been in a bar. All these things twenty-four year olds usually take for granted.

We all seemed to enjoy the night and have talked about arranging to do something else again soon. Of course when I dropped a hint about my ex babysitting again he didn't sound like he'd welcome the idea. *sighs* Is it wrong that I feel a bit peeved about that? I mean I watch them 24/7/365 and he begrudges me 7 hours once, only 2 of which they were awake? I love my kids, I wouldn't give them up but it would be nice to think their father wanted to spend more time with them.

Ok, need to get off that topic before I set off all my buttons. Obviously it's a sensitive issue. I feel guilty for having married a guy who's not the wonderful father I'd have liked my kids to have. But then he didn't make much of a husband either. Now it's just a case of moving on from past mistakes and while I appreciate him babysitting tonight I know I can't depend on him to do it regularly. Espeically since he'll be going back to America as soon as the paperwork clears so he can marry his new woman.

But, for a short entry this ramble/rant is already long enough. Basically I've had a wonderful day. A very productive day. Even if none of that production revolved around my writing. Life is progressing forward and sometimes it's the other areas in live that take priority.