Mental Meanderings

Blogging for Blogging's Sake

Ever felt like you're just writing words to fill the void? That's what I feel like at the moment. It's an hour past the time I usually plan to write my blog and I'm feeling totally uninspired. I've been feeling uninspired all day. I keep feeling like there is so much I need to get done in every aspect of my life that it's so overwhelming I can't concentrate on doing anything.

At the moment when it comes to writing I have poems to rewrite (lots and lots of poems), two short stories to write/finish, my novel to edit, my poetry group to coax along, and a whole bunch of books I want to read. That's not to mention the reviews and port raids I want to get done here and the contests I want to write new content for and enter.

Sometimes it just feels like the list of To-Do grows so much faster then things are getting checked off it. Perhaps I should start scheduling my day a little more strictly so that I feel like I'm getting things done in each area. The trouble then becomes prioritising what's more important. Obviously I love writing poetry and perfecting my poetry but I feel guilty doing that because my novel is still sitting there unedited. And yet if I focus on my novel very little else gets done. Then if I focus on the shorts or the poetry I just keep having more and more of it to write and the novel doesn't start moving up the list.

And reviews. I could review all day and each review takes about 20 minutes. I have so many things I've promised myself or the author I'd review and they keep building up because there is an overwhelming amount of content on this site. When I review sometimes I feel like I'm letting myself down because I could spend the time working on my own writing and I have to remember that reviewing makes me a stronger writer too.

Blog reading doesn't help. There are so many great people here to read and while my list is smaller then many of the people I read it still takes time in my day and there just never seem to be enough hours.

I'm also looking after my kids in all this. Taking time to check they get regular meals, are clean and dry, my daughter gets to and from school, get to bed on time, and are safe and happy all day. The house always needs working on. From dishes, to mopping floors, to laundry, cleaning the toilet and bathroom, vacuuming, picking up toys. It all just seems to be a vicious circle.

*sighs* So basically I'm feeling overwhelmed and underwhelmed today. It's all too much and I wonder if I'll ever accomplish anything that I really want. Perhaps I should let my dreams guide me. I want to be a published novelist, perhaps that means I should make my book my number one priority at the moment. Put aside everything else until that's finished? But then I can't help but wonder if there is a fatalistic reason it's not getting looked on at the moment. Everything happens for a reason and maybe it's not the right time?

OMG too many deep and meaningfull questions on a brain that is just fed up with thinking. I'm going to fall this my blog for blogging's sake. It makes the day blue and then I'm going to take one of the books I want to knock off my list and get to bed and read till the book is finished before turning off the light.