A glimpse into my unconventional mind. |
Sometimes I am baffled by my own feelings. Usually, I work hard, see results, move forward and keep going. Lately though, everything seems to hinge on something else. If I do a.), I'll get to b.), only if a1), a2), and a3) have been completed. You know what I mean? It is all so complicated. I think I am afraid. Afraid to fail maybe because it's only me. Not that I am the only person in this world who is trying it by themselves but it is so scary. For some reason I cannot get this out of my head. I just want someone to tell me I am "doing fine, keep up the good work, you'll get it done! Of course you can handle those mortgage payments. I'm happy for you that quitting smoking is working and I know how tough it really can be." I suppose I need to be my own encouragement. I am, to a certain extent but, that outside boost helps alot. The only problem is everyone has their own things to think about. They need the boost too. Maybe I could encourage others more in order to find myself encouraged. Hmmmm, interesting thought. Everyone has their own set of fears to deal with. Deep down, I know and understand this. My life will continue forward as long as I see it that way. Stumbling blocks come along everyday for all of us. At least I know I am in good company. Good luck to you all! |