A little something about nothing

Dealing with loss

As this is my first loss of a family member...since I've been old enough to understand it anyway...I am not certain what is considered "normal" in handling every day life after that fact. In my mind I had always thought your mind would be preoccupied with sadness from your loss and it would be hard to function each day.

I was disturbed when I found this not to be. As if I was not mourning in the proper way. I am sad for my loss and showed great emotion during the whole process; however, now that it is over I haven't really been consumed by the thoughts of it. Is that wrong? Am I ignorning what has happened?

The one thing I do notice is I am not sleeping well. I find myself waking up multiple times in the night replaying the whole event in my head, not necessarily in order, but still reliving it all. Not sure what that means either.