Zee Blog

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Recently I've been getting a lot of reader feedback about my blog. Makes me feel all warm and squishy inside! susanL and Lady Lilly are awesome. If you haven't seen their portfolio, you need to go there. Right now. Stop reading this unless you've went.

Okay, have you gone?

Anyways, so my friend Jeff came over last night and we talked for a bit. He came bearing the news that Sheryl was basically beating herself to death over everything. I guess she's been doing nothing but sitting around drinking and smoking herself into a hole.

I just told him that at the moment I don't harbor any anger towards Sheryl or anybody. Instead, I told him that I really needed time to gather greater control for myself. I have this problem with internalizing everything and exploding at a later date. I've come to terms with it, and I know that it is a part of me. I don't, however, like doing it to other people and so until I can get back into counseling and work my way through it I'm not sure I really want to have a close friendship or relationship with anyone.

I sent her an e-mail last night telling her not to be sad about it. She replied today saying thanks and that she won't let it hurt her anymore. I also cleared things up with Jinx, and that makes me feel worse about my situation. I just can't express myself as easily as other people. In the back of my mind I fear they'll yell at me and tell me I'm wrong.

I dunno. Anyways, drama is carrying on and I need to keep it in order. Take care until you hear from me again ;)