The Life Of Me.

16th May 2005 pm - Lost

I feel....strange. Bewildered. Lost. About a few things to be honest...but I don't know...just feel...odd lol. Ah, how often do I use elipsis as little thinking points lol.

Grr...I have to think about going to uni. My parents seem to want me to move away so that I can go to the best university possible.

And now I don't know what to do...I guess I know I have to think about my future, and can't just pick a course that I'll enjoy without thinking about afterwards...just I really love drama. The buzz I get when I'm performing, or learning about performing is just so unlike any feeling in the world. Pure, unhindered adrenaline for what you're doing, the rush of knowing you're having an affect on your audience...it's just amazing. And I want to keep feeling like that. I don't know how I'd get to do that though, whether I'm actually good enough, and whether there'd ever be any room for me in the acting world.

But it's what I love. I love performing. I'd love to be able to sing and perform well at the same time...I love singing, I really do...but I get nervous, really nervous...plus I haven't sung in front of a proper audience for yonks...oh well...

What me going to do

Meh, and I love Martin too much.