The Life Of Me.

28th April 2005 - Gonna Fail!

Heylo again Hey, second post in a week lol. I dunno...am feeling a little meh. I don't know whether it's because I'm so friggin' tired, or because there's something wrong. I guess, if I couldn't blame it on the fact I feel like I haven't slept in weeks, I could blame it on the fact I've got exams coming up...and I'm not doing enough work. And the reason I'm not, is because I'm falling head over heels with Martin. I don't care if it's not been that long, I know how I feel and I feel love. Maybe I'm not in love with him yet, but I do love him, it's definitely more than like. He's just so amazing, so funny and kind, and he likes me God, I really like him...it's just not right...I shouldn't like someone this much after like three weeks :-S it should be physically impossible. I don't usually feel like this with people I've been seeing for like 2 months...especially with someone I've only recently met. Granted, most of the people I've been going out with, I knew them really well beforehand, but maybe that's a good thing. Maybe it shows that Martin's really kinda special. I'd marry him lol. *sigh* young love, eh? Young love...

But yes. Very tired. Doing not enough work. I bet I fail my exams eek. I guess I can resit...maybe I'll be wiser then anyway, but who knows. I know I've got to keep pushing myself, but I just don't have the energy. I feel like all I'm doing is catching up, why can't I just be on top of things for once??? I want to be living life...not catching up with it. And I know I'm not very organised, and I do try and please everyone before myself.

*sigh* I have to go, despite the fact I cannot be arsed AT ALL, I just wanna sit here spurting out the confusing randomness that is spilling out the ends of my fingers. But drama awaits.

Take care all.

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