An evolution in years |
Jackson and I spent 5 hours talking tonight. I think we've reached a decent agreement and things will be good on that front now. Thus, now the 2 really chaotic and unfinished things in my life (Jeremy and Jackson), have more or less had closure. Time to figure out the 3 chaotic life situation... Me... I always, always, always move from one relationship to another. Yes, sometimes there are periods as long as 3 months involved between each relationship, but I never end a relationship without someone else in mind to go to once I'm ready to move on. This time is not much different... Of course, there are people who I don't want to have knowing that, but I guess I've simply just stopped caring. For two reasons. 1) As much as I am attracted to this person, I have no interest in a serious relationship now and thus will not be persuing any resolution to that attraction (for now). 2) A relationship with him would be rather impossible given current logistics. So I stay single for now. And think. Which is always bad for me, but I do it anyway. Time to go sit in my dark room with a few candles lit and just meditate a good portion of the night away. ~~Sarah _________________________________________ http://lakewoodrpc.i8.com Support your local game store! "Forbidden fruits create jams" - Chuch sign saying "Human life is permeated with underground streams" - Berdynev "What a strange path I took to find my heart" - Crime and Punishment in Suburbia ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |