trapped in a soap opera

forever waiting

i guess you could say thats how i feel about everything right now. had a good first half of the day--tymm came over this morning, we had sex then slept till 1:30. god it felt so good just to be in his arms again. its been so long. usually we have that intention when he comes over, but end up having sex and then its too hot in the room, or he has shit to do and i have been so frustrated. it was nice today.
guess i havent said yet that the lawyer got the papers back from arthur--court date is nov 15 the day before our anniversiary--kinda ironic. course it will still be 30 days after court before its final but that will put it in by the end of dec which will help me out during tax season. what anniversiary would it be hmmmm i guess 4th im pretty sure. oh well anyway...

my situation still sucks some major ass--i really am not sure what im going to do but oh well sitting there worrying about it all the time is not going to help. it does get to me sometimes though. i miss being with tymm, even if we did fight a lot--all this excess stuff and being apart is really putting a strain on our relationship--thurs is 6 mos--a record for me with anyone im not married to--ok well 1 or 2 mos past the previous record--but each month longer is good. its sometimes hard to beleive we have been together that long.
well im waiting on him to call, waiting on some miraculous thing to happen to get me out of this crazy ass situation, waiting to have a home agin and have my boyfriend back, waiting on a court date--just generally waiting on everything.