trapped in a soap opera

frustrated but generally ok

pretty much my story right now. still ahve no money, have nothing, still have to pay shit and find a place to live by the end of the month, still fighting with tymm. but im just not that worried about it right now--just trying not to think about it and hoping it works itself out. oh well. went to take my oral exam today and i kept thinking of the spanish words instead of german, and forgot some words so he told me to come back thurs and do a better job. i dont want to come back thurs...i want to fail this test so that i can concentrate on the lessons we are on right now. if ive still got that hanging over my head then i dont have time to learn the new stuff...i just wanted to get it over with--its not like im going to be any better at it by thurs anyway. i dont really know how to study the shit. oh well.
thats about all i have to say i guess--got my first counseling appt tomorrow well see how that goes.