Starting Again

Just more confusion

I recently returned from a vacation back east to see all my friends in Michigan. While there I also flew down to Tampa to see another friend. Tampa was awesome and of course being near the water was incredible as always. It was great seeing all my friends since I hadn't been back to see most of them in four years. Lately I have been feeling like I needed to move back because I missed being near all my good friends. When I went back in July I thought I was even more convinced that it was true. However after this last trip I am no longer so sure. After a week I realized I missed my home...Colorado that is. I guess I had to see that there would ever be one reason to move back and that with the cards I am holdng in my hands that reason isn't likely to present itself.

So I find myself once again feeling like I don't know where I really belong even though I love it here. I miss my friends but most of them individually aren't reason enough to go back. I know in my heart of hearts what I want but even I only have so much power to get it. Sometimes you have to deal with the hand you have and know that if something is meant to be it will be.