An evolution in years |
I used to call these rants back in the days when I was an angry teenager. This journal has come a long way. I'm realizing now, as a result of the events yesterday, that I will probably never get Jackson out of my head. I'm not sure if this is a good or a bad thing, and that worries me (alot of things worry me, I'm a worrier). I wish I could find a way to dislodge him from my thoughts. I still have dreams of running into him somewhere, only now I'm unsure of what my reaction would be. I feel it would be somewhere between anger and pain. But I can't tell if I would be happy to see him again. I'm not sure I would. I can't help but wonder at the fact that he's still in my head. And, joy of joys, his mother just emailed me again. Will I never be rid of these memories? "If you don't have the time to read, you don't have the time, or the tools, to write." - Stephen King "Forbidden fruits create jams" - Chuch sign saying "What a strange path I took to find my heart" - Crime and Punishment in Suburbia "Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first." - Mark Twain ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |