trapped in a soap opera

i dont remember anything

hell i dont even know what i wrote about last time so i dont know what all to say tonight. ok now im pissed, this will be the second time that ive written this shit--my comuter lagged saving it earlier, and it lost it all.

the other day i got ot sleep with jeremiah. just slept together. it was really cool--i am rarely that comfortable with a guy. he didnt try anything and neither did i. it was really nice--and the first time that i have succeded at just sleepign with someone (there are times i havent had sex but have messed around). i wouldnt sleep with him sleep with him anyway cause he has a girlfriend (and of course cause i cant).

as for the title and last nights events./...well i got a little drunk at the sandbar and blacked out for the first time. from the time we went back to the sandbar, till i woke up today is all a blank with two little bleeps thrown in. the only things i remember are them telling me to sleep in jeremiahs bed cause he was at carries, and getting up to do something and going to get back into bed and seeing jeremiah there and going to the couch. i had ot get J up to move his truck today so i asked where i was when he got home--apparently he came home crawled into bed and that woke me up so i sat up and started walking to the closet, and then went to the bathroom. he said he talked to me and shit but i dont remember it. then i went to the couch. apparently i drunk dialed him last ngiht too to tell him i was sleeping in his bed--oh well. other than that im gettins some bits and pieces of what i did. nothing too major--i didnt get in any fights, or sleep with anyone, but still it freaked me out. anyway i need to go to bed im tired. night