Varying Shades of Gray - My Life

06-26-03

Okay three best things have happened since my last entry. I got to spend more time with JC. DA came home from his vacation, and I actually got to talk to BOH. :)

Now, I want to kill AW's dad more than anything. He found out? that AW is gay and basically told him that he doesn't want a "faggot" living under his roof. If I could, I would take that boy in, in a second. He such a sweet person and so caring. By the time I got there, tonight, he had, had several drinks, which saddened me, but I understood completely. I myself had several beers, while there. His dad went to stay with his girlfriend. So, I stayed there until AW finally fell asleep. I will be going back as soon as I finish this entry. I just do not want him waking up and no one else being there with him. (Yeah, I am an ol' softie and care ALOT)

Before I left there though, JMC came over. AW was already almost passed out by this time. JMC had some "words" for me and JC, luckily JC was NOT there, otherwise he probably would have gone off at that time. I intend to tell JC what happened, and knowing him, he will feel bad for JMC, and I am too. It it just that I had no idea how strongly JMC, really felt about me.

Well, JMC said his piece and left without so much as a goodbye. I am so worried about him. I love and care about him so much. NOBODY ever intended to hurt him.

Well, I came home to change and sent BOH a quick message. Not 5 minutes later, he called. THANK GOD. We didn't talk long, because he was told it time to get off the phone. (He is grounded from the computer for a week) :(:( I so badly, want to just bring him here. Yeah we have our problems here (legal and personal), too. But, at least we'd all be together to deal with them as a team. He encouraged me alot. It was actually my second time talking to him, tonight. The first time, none of the above crap had "hit me" yet. The second time was pure encouragement. He Grad's tomorrow. He said he would try to call me tomoorow night. I hope he can, if he's not too busy. But given the night, if he can't, I'll understand completely.

Well, I am gonna close this for now and head back over to check on AW. I'll most likely stay there with him the rest of the night. Just for my own assurance that he's okay. Have a great day all and take care.