trapped in a soap opera

weird keyboards

sittin here at school cause i got done with my test early and dont have another class until 4 so im bored. they have those weird ergonomic keyboards though and im having trouble getting used to it. so forgive my spelling.

Ok what to say. well, once again i might have a job, at a gas station, not my first choice but better than the options i was looking at. supposed to go tomorrow and look at some papers or something. would have today but had the test to take. she was originally not to happy about that i had to have mon and wed off cause it broke up others 2 days in a row off, but when i said something about only having 3 weeks left she said we could try it and see how it goes. thats why i think i might have the job. not countin my eggs before they hatch though. did ok on my test i guess got most or all of the multiple choice etc right but didnt do so hot on my essays. i really didnt knwo what i was talkin about and my BS talent wasnt anywhere to be found today. maybe cause I am kinda zoned out from gettin drunk last night and not gettin any sleep oh well. Damn ive still got an hour left and its too cold to sit outside and BS and smoke. whats up with the cold front it was hittin 70 on monday but yesterday and today have been COLD. been having an interesting time talking to Jonas on MSN hes from Denmark and its cool to learn about another country. he enjoys languages as much as i do and we have a lot in common
i joked that i was going to move there. denmark is culturally similar to the US except for the fact that theyre more tolerant and laid back. thats kinda the shit that really annoys me about here everyone has their opinion and thats the only opinion to be had. dont get me wrong i have my opinions too but i dont expect everyone around me to share them, and if soemone else makes me think about my current opionion then i am open to changing.

as far as perk goes, im really going to miss him, and thats causing a lot of problems with me trying to hold on too tight while hes here. I pretty much consider myself to be his girlfriend even though thats not what we call it. if we called it that then i would be pushing at the top of the "box" that i had been put in. its so complicated. its hardest when i go to his house because im layin there with him and it feels so comfortable and my mind starts running and i wonder whats going to happen after hes gone. anyway doesnt help to worry about it, like he said last night i need to just enjoy the time that we have.
well thats all i can think of i guess i had better go