trapped in a soap opera

doin a lil better at least for now

well i was distracted for a lil while by sean--thankfully he was pretty good while mom was gone cause i dont think i could have dealt with it. i wrote a poem earlier after i got off of here--one of my more morbid ones i guess you could say ill put it in here cause i doubt you are such loyal readers that youd actually go look up my profile and read it and this is just as much a part of me as anything else i write probably more so

Ghost
4/4/03


Look inside my chest
Tell me what do you see
My heart no longer beats there
Only a hole where it once was

Try to kill me if you can
I only wish you could
I am tired of this curse
But I cannot die

Emotions long gone
Only emptiness remains
Emptiness meshed with pain
Numb my mind from the inside

Try to kill me if you can
I have no heart, I cannot bleed
I am doomed to this life
For I am already walking dead

I am nothing more than a ghost



yeah well there you go. i havent had time to really think, but no ones on so im thinkin thats about to start so who knows how ill be soon. damn someone get the fuck on so i can be distracted. well gonna go before i start lamenting my life again u heard enough of that earlier