trapped in a soap opera

ummmmm i need to get some ;)

Ok well theres that point given what else should i say. Umm Perk got home today, i really missed him. Its kinda wierd, its like i love him but not in a romantic kinda way but enough that i missed talkin to him and shit (i didnt get to talk to him much cause he was busy all weekend). He came by for a lil bit, we mostly just held each other. he only stayed about 30 min. I think im gonna miss him when he leaves more than ill admit. I dont know if ive let my guard down too much ( dont think so) or if im just so used to seeing him and talking to him or what the deal is really. Im kinda confused about the whole thing. I know i dont romantically love him, but--hell i just dont knwo what i think, other than theres going to be a hole in my life when he leaves. Why is it that i cant ever have anyone good in my life for long? who knows--all i know is im losing my best friend--again. dont find ppl who understand me and can put up with my shit for long
oh well such is life--at least mine
my life sucks ass

talken to meri (the hot chick) and her husband--having fun--they offered to cam for me earlier but mom was still up and aroudn shoulve taken them up on it anyway.
oh well
all i got to say for now
later