An evolution in years |
"Thoughts disappear and hopes have died But now I am safe, nothing can hurt me here" "The truth and the lies so confused as one I can't believe in anything sacred when I don't believe in anything" "Locked in my memories There's nowhere left for me to hide But I am not real I've made all I am with lies" "I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe That there is nothing, Nothing left for me" "You used me up and left me here for dead" "Worthless, I'm a whore, crawling back for more It's pathetic how I feed off this abuse" "So all that I believe I am essentially are lies And everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I was Died with your belief in me so who the hell am I" "You wither And you blister I watch you burn and peel It's not like you can save me" "Give me back my mind" "I've spent every moment since the day you left In an attempt to rebuild a shattered remains of a pathetic life" "I swallow the hate, betrayal, and lies I swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me" "I just can't learn to forget Now I'm choking on the memories Choking on regret I tried, but I can't find a way to untangle all the pieces After they've been thrown away" "From the moment that you're born From the moment that you're concieved From your first step across the room 'Till you first learn to pee You're filled with hate Filled with lies Force fed foolish pride" "Voices whisper softly in the darkness Cries of accusation evil lies Voices echo screaming throbbing laughing Peel back my skull and look inside" "Someone screaming softly in the distance I run to seek my refuge from the light Until the darkness once more falls upon me" "Will the weight of today finally pull me down to drown" "I thought you were my friend that you were someone that I could turn to Now I realise that you were a friend when you needed something" "I know your life is empty, And you hate to face this world alone Your searching for an angel Someone who can make you whole" "The truth scares the shit out of me" "And now there's nothing left to say Well, nothing that you'd believe" "A darkness grows inside me in fading shades of gray All the colors of the world are slowly sucked away I'm sinking ever deeper to a place that's cold and black" "It's hard to face the truth sometimes" "I should be feeling so alive But it feels like something's missing Something's wrong somehow It feels like something deep inside has died" "And if there's one thing that I've learned from life, it's that it gets you in the end" "You think you're in control but you make me sick" "Now I just can't believe In myself or in anything" "Some nights I feel like I have died Or something deep inside is dying I try to understand my crimes But there's nothing here that really matters" "Your soul, a pit of stone The depths I wish I could have known Dangerous, black and full of spite" "You stare at me so silent, you stare at me so cold I think you stare right through me, that stare has made me old" "Your face flashes through my head, I swallow pain So this is how it feels to be betrayed" "Now all the empty promises are dead" "I want you the fuck out of my head" "Late last night I tripped in violent shades of green A thousand voiceless faces were chasing me I ran through air as thick as glue From a thousand fucking faces that all look like you Through night as black as hate my spirit fled Through branches filled with thorns my eyes bled and bled How could I ever hope to win this race When everytime I close my eyes I see your face When everytime I close my eyes It just can't happen here" ~~Sarah |