Thoughts and Feelings by Jake

Void

There is a pain that keeps surfacing everytime I let my guard down. Why is it so difficult for me to understand that I will never feel love again? Not necessarily for another, but for me as well. When will the time come that another loves me the way I love them? Have I blown my chances or will there ever be that spark int my life again?
There is a void that is dark and empty. A void that needs to be filled. To know what this can feel like again will brighten my darkened world. I think that I allow myself to feel too much and when that happens people grab those emotions and leave them twisting in the wind. Goals and achievement of them do make my life satisfying; however, I still need something else to make it more complete.
Hand in hand I watch them walk. They have found that which I have lost. Seeing that how can I not feel so rejected or not feel sorry for myself? They know that which I have known; yet, cannot realize again. I feel so alone. Even though I am always around people I still feel alone.



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