Mouse on the Move

October 2, 2024

Second thoughts..... and thirds.....and fourths.......

I don't know if I can do this.
I tried going to work before but I ended up quitting after 2 1/2 weeks.
I hate taking the buses really early or really late in the day.

Winter will be here soon, and I don't think we can count on another mild one like last year. In fact, with last year having been so mild we're probably in for a harsh one this year. That's why I quit last time. Having to catch buses and then still having to walk through the snow for two or three blocks.

I really don't want to let Audrey down. I don't want to let myself down.

Some may say I'm setting myself up for failure by telling myself now that I'm not going to be able to do it.

Will I really be able to keep my eye on the prize this time? I do need the money. I do need to feel better about myself.
but is it going to make me feel better about myself if I can't do it?

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I'm heading into a depressive episode already with my writing. I am so horribly blocked. I don't even know if I am going to be able to finish October Novel Prep Month, let alone be able to do NaNoWriMo.


What am I going to do? I've been reading inspirational sayings, meditating to reduce my stress, working with my Runes.....

nothing seems to be helping. I'm dragging myself from day to day and I keep cancelling appointments and classes.

I feel just okay when I get up in the mornings and by 1 pm I'm dragging and wanting to go back to bed. All I want to do is lay around......


My life just really sucks dirtwater right now......