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What do I owe those who helped me get to this place in life? To the many readers of this blog (who now number almost 5k), who have offered me support over the last three years, I am greatly indebted. But what can I do to repay them? And there are so many others who have been there for me on this journey. People who cared and didn't give up, even when I had. The answer is obvious...to live the best life I can and don't fall back into addiction. Those words used to be so easy to say, but so hard to do. Now, I am making good choices and following up with actions that help prevent relapse. I saw a news report recently that said Thailand is being flooded with cheap meth from Myanma (formerly known as Burmah). I know if I wanted to buy meth, it wouldn't be hard to find a source. Of course, there are huge risks associated with this, not least of which is the reality that I would likely die from overdose/poisoning or in a Thai prison. And if I did choose this path, I would deserve everything I got. I'm smiling right now because that is not going to happen. I'm enjoying this new life way too much to blow it all for a short-term high that will leave me dealing with a fate worse than those I have already listed...the horror of psychosis on a level I cannot begin to fathom. This afternoon as I cooled off in the pool (no laps today because I did weights and cardio this morning) I noticed a small bee that had come for a drink and ended up in the water. As it struggled for its life, I cupped my hand under its body and placed it on the edge of the pool. As I watched on, it began to dry off its legs and wings and eventually, it flew off. No one could know what the ramifications are to the universe because I saved that bee...just as those who helped me would not know what I will make of this chance I've been given. All I do know is, I am determined to make the most of it and to try and make a difference in other people's lives. As yet, I don't know who they are...but I will recognise them when they come I've always pondered fate and destiny...and I always will. Legacy, however, is what we make of our lives. I still have a lot of work to do before I will be satisfied with what I have achieved in my life. |