Porthole

37th week of the year 180

(exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. Groan


3 desember - 3 ธันวาคม (ธค)

My computer is acting up. Until it settles down... calm cloudy morning. Pan came home around 10 am. I really do not feel well.

blog. "Trauma and ramblings" 
exor. 200/200/200/300 = 900. Not well. 77 degrees.
obsv. Swarm of hundreds of bees by work-out stations. I put cones to block the path.
ss&s.
chat. Rick and John.
walk.
foto. วิดีโอ.

2 desember - 2 ธันวาคม (ธค)

exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200.
rent. Paid for six months.
ss&s.

1 desember - 1 ธันวาคม (ธค)

I switched my blog to "Hoarfrosts from Hell"  as basically no one was reading or commenting on this blog... for years. I continue it for random thoughts and my blah blah list of my boring life and daily goals.

Pan came home this morning with his luggage and made breakfast and did the wash. I was too busy to help.

PorP. "Thorns"  and "Normality" 
wash. Pan scores again.
ss&s.
chat. John, Rick, P'Nan.
cash. ATM was nice today.
exor. 300/300/300/500 = 1400. 18:52-19:23. 81 degrees. Banged my shin.
cook. Chicken, grilled chicken, fish, (PaLo = pork, egg, broth), carrot, greens, shallot. Yummy. Made at 20:00. I wanted something for Pan. 22:30... he's still not home.
tv25 & tv31. Last Twilight, Pit Babe, Middleman.

30 november - 30 พฤศจิกายน

ytBL. Last Twilight ep.3
วิดีโอ. Saw the dawn on the train.
ss&s.
chat. Saw P'Nan briefly.
walk.
rose. red
tv25. I'm Tee, me too (finale?)
exor. 200/200/200/300 = 900. 21:44-22:00 81 degrees.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j9jbdgZidu8 Pogues: Shane MacGowan dies, age 65.

Miserable train trip. "Cold", bright lights, couldn't get comfortable. And then... Pan wasn't home. I was upset. Later, he did cook supper but left again. I'm probably over-reacting. Why do I bother?

I was the wounded fox quivering in the dark forest waiting for the fog of oblivion, the seed wedged in a crack in the parched pavement waiting for the rain. And I was the golden child who knew he was fake gold waiting for a hug he never received.

So there I was, waiting for the end of winter, hoping I would die come spring.

My lips savored the bittersweet chocolate. I wasn't hungry, hadn't been for a long long time; but, the memory of chocolate-past soothed my nerves. I wanted to die quick. This wasting away was tedious and unnecessary. The end was known. Why, oh why, the delay?

I watched the icicle drip. It was slowly dying too.

In "Normality"  547 words

29 november - 29 พฤศจิกายน Malaysia to Thailand

chat. Lunch with Tamil, duck rice; he brought my umbrella. Starbucks. Small gift = a gnome?
foto. from plane.

Goodbyes to Mr. Lim, Boon, Ken, Zul, Pauline.
Flight on Air Asia. Seat 6A. Turbulance... not even water.
Problem at Immigration. New stamp for 28 December.
3rd class on the train, car 8 (9 may be better). 202 baht. Very little rest.

28 november - 28 พฤศจิกายน Georgetown, Malaysia

Chat. Pauline, Will, Zul Iskandar... went out to dinner; liked oyster omelette.
Foto.

Pauline showed me her treasure... and gave me some old money.

27 november - 27 พฤศจิกายน Georgetown, Malaysia

exor.
cash. Managed to change 1.000 baht = 130 renggit
chat. Coffee w/ Boon; drive w/ Ken.
foto. วิดีโอ. call to prayer.

Adjusting. Managed to eat chicken rice 7.5RM. Too distracted to be sad over missing Loy Kratong in Thailand.

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