My Conversion Story Journal

September 5, 2023

It is Tuesday which means I made my challah dough and put it in the fridge. On Thursday night, I will bake my challah to use for Shabbat on Friday night. I can no longer make it on Friday morning because of work.

Pictures of my challah that I made one weekend are posted below.

I was asked what I am going to do about observing Shabbat when the days get short, and the honest answer is, "I don't know!" I don't know how I am going to keep up with my job and my studies. I don't know how I am going to keep driving to shul (5 hours of driving) each week. I don't know how I am going to be able to prepare the house and dinner before Shabbat starts when I might have only an hour between the time I get home and candle lighting. I just don't know.

I don't know how I'm going to participate in Yom Kipper. Yom Kipper is Sunday night and Monday. I work Monday. I have students testing that day. How can I go to shul (5 hours of driving) and participate in activities when I have obligations?

Honestly, there's a lot that I don't know. I'm just going to keep learning and trying my best to serve Hashem and grow closer to him, because I love him. I know Hashem is leading me and I'm following. Because of this, I know if it is his will, I will figure it out and it will work out.

I hope you like my challah bread. It does taste as good as it looks!