Meth: a Ticking Timebomb Gone Viral

What I Need To Change

Every day I wake up and think how glad I am that I chose not to do drugs the day before. And then, as I sit eating my breakfast and planning my day, I think about how glad I will be to get to bed that night without using drugs.

I know what's coming...but I also know what ELSE might come if I don't stick to the program and let my guard down for just a minute...literally one minute that will change my entire future if I choose to do drugs. Today, I didn't exercise for the first time in many weeks. But I did get a lot done in my garden, which has been seriously neglected for reasons I can probably justify, but won't. It's likely I will feel the effect in my muscles of the excursion, but it won't stop me from going back out there and completing the job...or at least, finish what I started today.

There was no group meeting tonight. Last week Katie and I shared numbers so that if the meeting is cancelled, it doesn't waste anyone's time. She assured me she would be back next week. The bonus was it gave me the opportunity to do more outside before nightfall.

My grocery list has changed. There's more fruit and less chocolate. More FOR me and less for my addiction. It makes such a difference to my spirit when I find I still have money left in my account come payday, instead of having nothing but lost hope and cravings.

Life is good...I can't see myself going back to drugs, but then, I never do until I do, and that's what I need to change.