Delete Button - Reboot

Half Way Point.

Good day all...

I didn't manage to finish any scenes last night so the chapter didn't get done. It'll get done. Today possibly. It'll be chapter 11 but given I have parts of most of the chapters going forward done I am more than halfway through the 21 chapters planned for Emancipation. This is the point where I start to feel anxiety. First, there is the anxiety that I won't ever manage to finish. My first two attempts at writing a book fizzled out after 6 years of work and like ten to fifteen chapters. So there is reason to fear. Although I haven't had any problems finishing since I started doing a detailed scene-by-scene outline.

The second wave of anxiety is that I will finish, but that I will never be able to write another book. Like the last fifteen were mere flukes and I don't really have the capability to do it. I shouldn't worry about this really. It is probably an extension of the thought that I can't finish the one I am working on...

The third wave of anxiety is that I have been working and hanging out with these characters for X months and I am going to miss them. The way they whisper dialog at me as I am just falling asleep or am laying in bed pretending I haven't woken up yet. The characters are like friends and there is no guarantee that they will be in the next book or that I will ever write about them again. Even if I do, so often they have been changed by events between the books that I didn't write about. It just isn't ever quite the same.

Thanks for letting me vent.