cows, cowboys, and wannabes

Marriage

I know in a blog you’re supposed to add things everyday but I guess that’s just not me. Al x quite his job so now we are not working together and things between us have actually been pretty decent. However, I can’t shake the feeling that I’m just a phase in his life. A point of time that he is afraid of losing but unwilling to move forward. We’ve been talking about getting married and having kids for a long time now, he bought a ring but now nothing. I mean he has told me for months that he plans on spending the rest of his life with me and that he wants to marry me but if I ask him why he hasn’t asked yet, he just replies with it’s to soon. I don’t see a point of too soon when people love each other. I can’t shake the feeling that he doesn’t actually want me he just doesn’t want to lose me. I know I’m overthinking but it’s just a gut wrenching feeling that I may be strung along without any reward in the end.