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Rated: E · Book · Spiritual · #2308743
My Spiritual Autobiography
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#1059904 added September 6, 2024 at 5:19pm
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The Beginning
The story of my walk with the Lord began with Him saving my earthly life seconds after it had begun. The God I know and love today, wasn’t going to let His will for my life get interrupted.

I was very ill when I was born and spent weeks in and out of the hospital before I finally came home to be permanently reunited with my older brother Ken and my twin sister, Cynthia. While I don’t remember ever going to church as a young child, I’m sure I did, as we were raised Catholic. I was baptized and received the sacraments of First Communion and Confirmation. But I never saw anyone read the Bible prominently displayed on the coffee table in our living room. It was mostly used to record important dates in our family such as baptisms, confirmations, and weddings.

I went to public school until the fourth grade when my parents enrolled me in St. Stephen’s school. It was a very small school and there was a sense of belonging there. My mother was in the Mother's Guild and made sure that we went to church and received the sacraments. Because of my Catholic grammar school experience, I knew God existed but was never taught that I could have a personal relationship with Jesus. All I learned about Him was that He loved me. I also learned about the saints and the Catholic holidays and that if I was bad, I would go to hell. I was always petrified that if I did something bad during the day and died at night, I would go straight to hell.

Going to a public high school, though, was difficult for me. I didn't have the sense of belonging that I had at St. Stephen's. I was shy and kept to myself much of the time. Around that time, my sister Karen was born and I was feeling pushed into the background even further. This was the start of my rebellious years as I pushed God into the background as well.

As I sit here trying to explain the beginning of my faith journey, I realize that I can’t write about something that wasn’t there to begin with. During those early years, we were never encouraged to have a relationship with God or His Son, Jesus. There was God...and there was us. And that’s all there was. Someone in heaven was overseeing my behavior and if He was pleased with me, I could go to heaven.

As I look back at all the confusion, and oftentimes isolation, of those early years, I realize that the process of spiritual growth had to begin with me.



Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5

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