First Blog Post

         I think everyone who is even a bit computer savvy has considered at one point of his life to start a blog. I am one of them. Now, I go on checking out blogs from successful bloggers. I look at them as brilliant entrepreneurs. They must not have a lot of flaws. I go to wordpress website and everything seems quite easy. 10 minutes and voila! I have a blog. But what now? I type "How to make a successful blog" and I immediately get what I was searching for. Every blogger has at least one "How to make a successful blog" article. I'm in luck. I check the instructions, my eyes stop at one line. Select a niche. I scroll there and start reading. I am supposed to select a topic through which I would deliver value to my readers. I should be passionate about the topic I select.
         Not sure if I really have any value to deliver to my readers. I think I'm passionate about a lot of stuff. I like to read and watch movies. I kind of like maths. Sure as fuck wouldn't want to write book or movie reviews. Could you even blog about maths? Apparently, you can (https://mathblog.com/). That seems way too advanced for me, though. Now, I don't know how to continue from that point on (hence the post). I can't imagine a single thing I would be willing to write about constantly and research it. Maybe I'm not passionate about anything.
         Also, this all looks really hard. People who are doing it, are probably well organized and are dedicating a lot of time to their pet blog. Fear of failure is consuming me, I admit that. I mean, at first glance these people are the game changers. Just try digging about the owners of respected blogs. You will find some really discouraging information (at least I consider it discouraging). Person A founded multiple websites and sold them for hefty amounts of money. Person's B mission is to be a positive force in this world. And so on. And what am I? I am a college student, I have studied abroad. I think I have a decent imagination, and a good grasp of English. On the other hand, I'm anxious often. I have some bad habits. I'm a smoker, I enjoy weed too often. When I want to avoid problems I turn on the video games and completely shut down myself from everything else. Well, I do that or I wack off. Shouldn't I first tackle the issue of "repairing" myself before deciding to go on such an endeavor as starting a blog?
         No. Succesful bloggers do represent themselves in a light where they seem flawless. But, what do we know? Maybe one of them has a drug addiction problem and is contemplating suicide. He is still grinding, though. Someone else might have a sister that suffocated her infant child because it was born with a defect. People don't speak about that kind of thing. Why don't they? Maybe you have to appear successful to be able to monetize it. Maybe they have real value to offer to their consumers, so they have no need to differentiate themselves by being transparent, like me.
         I would assume the main difference between me, who thinks he has nothing to offer and them, who are offering something, is self-confidence. They get encouraged by a challenge whereas I get discouraged. I could try to pin it on my dad. He is an alcoholic, and I've read somewhere that children, raised by someone with an alcohol problem, have self-esteem issues. That would be too cheap though. I know better now. I am still where I started though, without a niche, which I so desperately need if I want to blog. I have nothing else to offer besides my words, and it has only now occurred to me that I actually like this. I like to write. So, I'm going to define my niche as just that, writing. Today, I might write random thoughts like these. Tomorrow I might write a short story. Next week it could be a journaling article, who knows? At least I have my options open.