Mate of My Soul

As my mind was swept away on an ocean of stars within the darkest sky
I did glimpse heaven and see the celestial wonders of God on high.
As I was privileged to receive a gift of glory beyond all measure
I loved it so and did nothing but safeguard it as beloved treasure.
The sweetness of such grace, I was awash in great joy
That my eyes overflowed from mere thoughts of this one and only boy.
Neither man, nor boy, but a perfect balance of both in one,
My thoughts cannot escape him in either moon or sun.
Mere thought of his face or recollection of his dear voice
Gives me great mirth that laughter is a desire and not a choice.

When I first knew you my eyes were blind and I did not truly see you.
With time my eyes were refreshed and cleansed and made anew.
As I saw you, finally for the first time, for who you truly are;
The rarest beacon of light, the faded shine of a far and distant star.
Your twin jewels pierce through my gaze and glimpse my soul
And as I have never felt before you make me feel finally whole.
Before I could reveal myself you had deciphered my inward side
For you understood and knew just what you saw inside;
You saw within me a part of you too great to forget or ignore.
For what you did see I had guessed was what I, too, saw
Within your inner self was a reflection of my very self as we both knew
And then it was I began to understand this feeling I possessed for you.

Each day my heart proved ever more of my yearning
As I did also seek and wish from you, that which I was dearly earning
With all my might and all my will, my bravery could not fail me
Or else I would cower, lost without you should you learn and see
Just what it was i carried for you deep within my heart
The flame of a candle that I had been seeking after since the start.
Alas, the fear did threaten to thwart, to maim, to kill
And yet I remain and here I stand tall and strong still.
My heart consumed by ardent love that could not ever hope for you
For if you truly did then all would be that you do love me, too.

These thoughts of times now past yet not long gone
Remind me of the pain, the fear, the shame, forlorn.
I stop these thoughts and return to this place where I am now
And here is where the gift I received was granted to me somehow.
No matter the pain, the fear, the shame as I did dread,
No matter if it did eat my mind and drain my soul til it was dead,
A glimpse of God, a gift of hope, did grant me peace that I might wait.
Without the fear of what should come and would be our inevitable fate,
The unfounded joy resided within my heart and mind
So much so that I do not dare nor wish to look behind.

So now I go on, my heart beating every beat with you in mind.
My lips stretched as wide as they dared in the only smile my face could find.
The laughter of pure and utter joy at the mere sight of your face,
A true joy of mine, blessed I am to know of your pained yet loving grace.
My cheeks stained with untold, unfounded happiness of my very soul
Do hurt from unending laughter erupting as it would from my face as a whole.
As I await to rejoin you in a time that's yet to come,
I eagerly await that God almighty has everything planned out for all, not some.
Then I will know my love and wait were not for nought
As the Son was paid for and bought,
So, too, am I within His love and care
And one day us two shall be as one with You, there.