Loving Me For Me.

The days of putting
My self down must
End. I must stop being my own
worst Critic. When I put myself
Down it’s only because I am afraid
That if I don’t do it
Then someone else will.

I am afraid that they will see all of
My imperfections and point them
Out. Point them out for the whole
World to see.

They will see me for who
I really am a scared, alone, confused, abused, emotionally
Drained, self conscious, pessimistic, not loving my self for me,
So much low-selfish-teem physically and mentally messed up
Me.

I’m scared that if they see all of
These things that are wrong with me
They will use it against me
Just to hurt me.

I must learn how not to hurt
My self. How to see the beauty
In me. I just don’t think that
There is much beauty in me.
To be honest I don’t
Think that there is much at all inside of me.
The only things that I feel most
Of the days is pain, envy,
Anger and pitted.


I see the way my sisters look at me.
With the eyes of uncertainty afraid
Of what’s going to become of me.
I’m not very sure if they really believe
In me. I don’t even believe in my self
How can I suspect anyone to believe in me.

I don’t won’t to have
Such offal thoughts
About myself. I can’t stand hating
Me for who I am.

It’s just the fact that
That’s all I have every known.

As a child I was told, such heartless
Things. The things that she said tore me.
I can’t blame her anymore I won’t!
Those words just really stuck to me.
The painful names that she called me.

I must stop, stop feeling sorry
For your self.

But I just can’t seem to let go.
To let go of the past and make the future
Better.
I want to make my self stronger
I want to be able to look at the world in the
Eyes and say that I will make it
Through the storm I will surive. I will strive to be
A better person. I will over come all of my insecurities and
Be the best person I can be
To love my self just for me.
That’s how god made me so I’m going to love
Me.