Normal is all I want

I feel the tugging of it
i try to hide from the truth
my life i try to make it normal
i shy away from what is real
this fantasy i call it
something to make it stop calling
wonder why its picking me
not seeing why im so special
running away from my destiny
hiding in the corners of darkness
not seeing the true light
wondering why this is so
questioning why i am gifted
afraid to step forth
scared to take on this path
unsure of what i am supposed to do
not looking in the right direction
unsure of what next step i need to take
trying to sort the questions that take over my mind
wishing my life was normal