' i was awake '

I was awake when they thought I was sleeping, wondering what was the secret they're keeping, wondering why they're all talking like I wasn't here.
Pushing and prodding and looking away,
fussing and fighting through every day,
wondering why the price that I pay's so dear.

Can't understand what the whole world is thinking,
I want to move on,but my whole world is shrinking,
why can't I stop and make up my own mind for myself?
I can't go on being somebody's mooring,
the poisonous well from which you are drawing,
I think I hear the calling from somebody else.

I had a dream,but I lost it in living,
I might've robbed,'cause I sure wasn't giving.
Live with the knowledge I know that it wasn't planned.
I'll never be just a face on the street,
I may never again stand on my own two feet,
all I want now is the peace,so I understand.