The Failure

What do you do with a failure?
I'm sorry...
Why did you even create me?
I'm sorry...

Sorry that I'm not who you want me to be
I'm sorry I lie
I'm sorry I'm not me...

Sorry for the look in your eyes
When I screw up yet again
And for the sadness in your voice
when I try to make amends

I wish I could tell you
How I really feel
What really goes on in my head
As I wait for my cuts to heal

But I'm no good with words
No failure is...
I just wish/hope you would understand...

My life has gone from happiness and fun
To black clouds that always hide the sun
I don't know how long I'll stay strong...

I love you guys way too much to leave you
But a failure like me doesn't deserve you
Don't waste your money and love on me anymore
I don't deserve it
I'll leave you alone permanently...

I'm sitting here now with tears in my eyes
A failure like me doesn't get second tries
I'm trying to figure out how to say goodbyes
I'm sorry...

I've tried the knife but that didn't work
So I'll find another way to leave this earth
Don't worry mom it won't be long now
Your failure will be gone...

If I do decide to go through with this
Tell God that I'm sorry
I was no good for you I had to go through
I was late for the devil's party...

I'm sorry I caused you pain
I'm sorry I wasn't "me"
But the only thing that I ever wanted
Was the gift of being free

What'd ya think? Some of it is my feelings...but the other part is for a scholarship like I said. please review and let me know what ya think.