Ghostly Love

Fuck….. Is there anyone out there? Anyone at all, or am I all alone in this black night. Forever shadowing my Soul’s light. I cause my own physical pain, hoping to drown out the emotional pain, yet it’s never enough. The loneliness is suffocating me. I can not breathe only sigh. My love is free flowing, yet totally restrained by my own self doubt. That light in my Soul is but a dimming spark, slowly being extinguished by the blood tears that my heart is forever crying. Luckily, I have trained myself to not let those emotions rear their ugly head. I keep them in check with a short leash, seeing as how utterly ashamed I am of them. I live day-by-day because I don’t see any future. I might as well be a ghost. Actually, that’s exactly what I am. A ghost invisible to love and companionship.

I’m sorry for writing this. No need.