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You stood behind me
Put your arms around my shoulders
Kissed my neck a few times
Before I wiggled out of your hold
Leaving you stunned that I could be so cold.
Why did you do this to me?
I did nothing,
This is not the way friends are supposed to be.
He said, "Please don’t be like this..."
Then he gave me a kiss.
My face flushed I said, but we agreed…
No, we didn’t, YOU wanted to be free
He looked deep inside me
And said, "But you bring out a need
in me that won't go away,
Thinking of you with someone else
Makes me feel dead."
I begin to fall under his spell.
"I still want you to be mine.
Anything else feels like hell!
Stef, you know it’s fate.
You can keep on pretending
But under it all I know you relate.
Otherwise you’re just playing me like a game.
You must like seeing you’ve turned me on again.
But you won’t give yourself to anyone else.
They could never be the same.
They could never love you like I do.
They don’t know what you like to hear
Whispered in your ear,
Won’t know how to play in your hair,
Or be mesmerized by your stare."
"You’re just not being fair!" I said,
Tears welling up in my eyes.
"Please you’ve got to stop this.
We both know it’s the step we need to take!
I’m tired of all the drama.
I want to rest.
You’re right, I do love you.
But that’s not enough to see us through.
Because you are going to keep being who you are." I sighed.
"But I can change, no other girl takes me the places you do." he countered.
"It’s too late for that, but I promise we’ll be fine." I said hoping it was true.
The look of desperation in his eyes,
prickling at my heart.
"Please baby," he whispered, "just one more time,
Then if you still want me to go
I’ll give you a new start."
He never meant that part.
He knew how to drown me in guilt.
He started undressing me.
"Okay, fuck it, but this is it
Promise me!!" I said, cursing myself already.
He smiled because he knew he was home free.
"Whatever you say..." he whispered,
As his tongue made it’s way
Across my body.
Fingers intertwined with mine
He whispers in my ear
All the things he knows I love to hear.
His feelings for me almost solid in the air
Eye locking with mine in a stare.
Bodies moving together,
I’m working out my frustration.
Waves of chills and shivers
Traveling through my veins.
Taking him over the edge
has always been my favorite part.
Pushing him until he can take no more
moans and deep breaths filling the room.
Orgasmic whimpers escaping from my mouth
Both of us collapsing.
I get up and go in the bathroom
Ashamed to see my reflection.
When I come out he looks on top of the world
And I just think
DAMN ME
And slip into bed beside him.