flinch

I’m so damn cold
Wrap your arms around me
And kiss my hairline
Whisper beautiful things to me
Like you always do
Don’t ask what’s wrong
I’ll just keep saying the same “nothing”
Over and over and over again
Just hold me
And soon my ugly thoughts will pass
His freezing harsh touch will fade
And I’ll no longer be afraid
Of broken bottles
And depressing songs set on repeat
His body pressing down on mine
While I struggle to breathe/escape
I won’t be afraid of waking up dead
Bruised and bathed in blood and tears
After a long night of steel-toed boots
Cruel fists and screamed threats
While I sink to the floor/cower
Pleading silently
Because pleas spoken aloud
Only further infuriate
The already insane angry boy
Disguised as a man
With long brown hair
So just hold me, love
Rock me gently
In your all-encompassing arms
Just let me whimper
Cry on your shoulder
Till I finally find sleep