What to do?

Sometimes i just wanna crawl in a hole and die
I've said this quite often and no one knows why
everything's so fucked up and i don't know what to do
the only thing i needed,i now can't have and that was you
everything is changing around me
pools of emotion, and my own broken heart are what i see
i don't know how to live like this
will i ever know true love, or does it exist?
my feelings and emotions are being tossed around
the torn pieces of my heart are piling up in a great mound
i see the painful reality with a tear in my eye
i need a close friend, one whose should i can cry
perhaps i take things too much to the heart but it's only cause i care
i wanted you so badly dear, i said as i felt my heart began to tear
you told me of another girl and this hurt me ever so much
now i'll never have you hear, never have your beautiful face to touch
why is it that you do this, do you not know how i truly feel
i love you with all my heart and this was the only thing i knew was for real
why do i fall for these gamess every single time
it's as if i'm trapped and blinded beneath walls i cannot climb