How is it possible to still be alive? |
I wake up and open my eyes Ask myself "I'm still alive?" Thirty pills--kinds unknown Nothing's changed, I'm still alone I say fuck it and grab a gun Load it up and say "Lets have some fun" Hop in the car and take the drive Still wondering how the Hell I can still be alive I finally arrive and get out the car Stuff the gun in my backpack...this feels bazaar The thought passes and I go on my way In the building and into class for a stay Sitting there silent, no one expected Studying my work, never suspected Slowly standing up, with backpack in hand Walk to the front, I smile and take my stand "Today is the day when all comes to pass... Tired of lies, and kissing y'alls ass." Pulling out the gun I point it towards them all Four shots are fired...there's blood on the wall. There's screaming and people crawling under desks I yell at one girl to shut up or she's next Walking over to the window I look outside Cops already there, no where to hide Picking a hostage I walk to the front door Whispering in his ear "I just couldnt take anymore" Holding the gun to his head We walk out, I'm not even scared. It's almost over, my deed almost done In his ear I whisper that he can run Tears start to slowly run down my face Telling them all "This'll sure make a case" Pointing the gun at a cop I say "Either you or me, only one will stay" Closing my eyes I fire the gun It's all over, it's all done My shot barely miss the top of his head A shotgun wound to my stomach...I lay there dead It worked out, all as planned They took my life as I demand I wake up and open my eyes Ask myself "I'm still alive?" Thirty pills--kinds unknown Nothing's changed, I'm still alone |