Love on death row

You know when you’re kind of like a serial killer and you’ve killed around like let’s say forty women roundabouts and suddenly one Sunday morning the door burst's open and the cops are standing at the end of your bed screaming their heads off, guns pointing, just waiting for an excuse to blow your brains out and you’re lying there but you’re not feeling scared or angry, no sir, most of all you just got this overwhelming sense of Phew, what a relief.
Phew, what a relief because you know it’s finally over. You can breathe a little easier because that goddamn secret that’s been torturing you for seven years is finally out and where once at the beginning of it all, it was kind of like a turn on, the secret’s now just a 100% pain in the ass.
At least that’s the way you described it to me in those first letters you wrote, remember those first letters when, in between those beautiful love poems you wrote me, you described your childhood, about how your father beat you and remember how you described in your book, your first book I mean, the autobiography, not the novels, about how you lived with that terrible secret all those years, about how you felt the constant need to tell someone, anyone, that it was simple old you that was doing the killings, but couldn’t, cos’ well, they’d damn well kill you.
That’s what I’m trying to say to you Chuck, just remember that need to let someone know the truth you had inside you all that time and the feeling of relief you felt once it was out in the open. What I’m getting at is, is, well,......there’s someone else in my life now.
Now before you get all angry and depressed again, just hear me out. I didn’t mean to meet someone else. Just like you didn’t mean to kill all those women, well you did mean to kill all those women but what I'm saying is,I didn't plan anything, it just happened and me and Bill, that’s his name by the way, Bill, are pretty happy together.
See, Bills a decent man, he’s got morals and,what’s the word, scruples, that’s it,he’s even got a job. A job! can you imagine! Do you know what that means to me? I’ve just never known a man like that. Someone who works insurance.
And it ain’t just that. I mean it can’t have escaped your notice our relationship just ain’t going nowhere, what with you being on death row n’all. Don’t get me wrong, our marriage day was the happiest day of my life, you sure looked handsome that day, my, I can still see you standing there in your tuxedo and ankle chains, I tell ya, I must have been the proudest gal in all of Alabama.
But things change, in short , the magic has gone Chuck, the magic has gone.
I tell you what don’t help,is them takin’ their time with the..........well, you know what, I mean what’s the hold-up? Have they ran out of gas or what? Don’t get me wrong Chuck, I hope you live a long and happy life, but I mean if they’re gonna do it, why don’t they just goddamn go ahead and do it! I mean it ain’t easy waitin’ for your husband,you know, to be no more, and it sure as hell can’t be easy for you. Listen I hope you don’t think I’m takin’ liberties or anything but I wrote a letter to the governor, last week, telling him to get a move on, I mean, what do we pay our taxes in this state for anyway! Now listen, don’t go lookin’ at me that way Chuck, besides I got some good news for ya, I was talking to my lawyer this morning and he says I can have the book rights, once you’re em, you know, not of this world and what with the film deal just been signed, I sure am gonna have my hands full in the next couple of months. That’s why I think we should sort of stay legally married until, em,....you know what.
Anyway,I better go, I told you about how 60 minutes are doin’ a feature on me, I’m seeing them this afternoon, it’s all go, I tell you, I thought they might want to interview yourself, but I guess that ain’t allowed or sumthin‘, still I’ll put a good word in for you. ( she stands up) I just wanted to let you know, about Bill and me, that’s all, see Bill says that every day is the first day of the rest of your life.......at least, well, you know.....( She smiles and walks out as Chuck stands up and is shuffled back to his cell in his ankle chains)
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