Analysis of misbehavior - assignment

A strict lady evaluated my punishment essay. She graded it a B. Her main criticism was that I did not explain the reasons for my disrespectful behavior. It is her opinion that this behavior occurs often. She believes it would be instructive for me to analyze the situations in which I am behaving this way.

I have assumed that the number of times that I have been disrespectful towards women that have been relatively few and spread out in time. I reviewed my entries and discovered that I am wrong. There are surprising number that reference disrespectful behavior. Unfortunately, it seems this is a bigger problem than I realized. There are 226 entries beginning in 2017, a total of 44 of them mention disrespectful behavior as at least one of the reasons I was punished. That is roughly 20% of the entries.


While the entries focus more on the punishments themselves most have some mention of the reason for the punishment. I used this to estimate how the offenses and timing.

I discovered that a large percentage of them highlighted my attitude, backtalk and other forms of disrespectful behavior. I knew that several of the entries had been named based on the behavior I was being punished for, but a look at each entry revealed that various forms of disrespectful behavior included in the list of behaviors that I was being punished for. Worse, yet, it was common to read that various forms of disrespect or evident during my correction. Very often my punishment was extended, and spankings were made more severe because of my attitude.

The act of disrespect that triggered this punishment was definitely not intended or willful. The lady asked me to write something for her. She reacted to it is very negative way and she felt I clearly crossed a line. I had thought I did what she wanted me to. I misread the situation and certainly misunderstood what her boundaries were.

Not thinking seems to be the most common source of these incidents. Literally, not thinking before making a comment that results in a negative reaction is a common source. One of the ladies I have corresponded with put this as acting like a boy in a man’s body. In her mind, in general men do not really completely mature.
I have communicated with other ladies like her and they hold little hope that these sorts of behaviors can be completely cured. They exercise different levels of severity, and how they deal with this behavior, but all of them give frequent punishments for this. One lady was particularly strict about it and she said that she spanks her husband every day. Although she has only once accused me of being disrespectful in our regular communications, she said that I would benefit from this same treatment. To be fair she thinks is true for most or all men.

The most embarrassing of the disrespectful behaviors is related to looking at or staring at women and ladies. I have been done this multiple times and even taken pictures without permission. I have received my worst punishments because of this. Most of the ladies I have been in communication with feel that this is behavior deserving the most serious punishments. Some simply found it amusing. Unfortunately, the most serious views were the ones that prevailed when additional punishments were determined. It is difficult to explain why I have done this (the last time was a while ago) other than to say that I was not thinking of how they ladies I was looking at might think of me showing interest in them this way. There is at least one case where I was caught looking at a girl and she gave me an amused look. Fortunately, she did not react in a very negative way.
My only explanation is that this is boyish behavior has been greatly reduced by embarrassment and serious spankings.

There have been other cases of disrespect in my communications with ladies that were in excusable. I once wrote a comment on description of a severe punishment a lady carried out on her husband. It was a “DWC hairbrush punishment” That was very severe and I commented that it was excessive and over the top. I have made comments of this sort a few times and it is inappropriate. I think I felt a sense of outrage for punishments that I felt were was out of proportion or were far to severe. The fact is that it was not any of my business what a couple does when there is consent involved. My “butting in” was where there was an established agreement. I was taught a good lesson for butting in. The lady I commented to recommended something just as severe for me as she gave her husband. When I act out this way, it is because I think that something isn’t fair or proportional.

Of the remaining sources of my disrespectful behavior, I am prone to tantrums that are childish. The ladies I have been in touch with tell me that they experience this behavior from their husbands and boyfriends. They believe it is a behavior issue that can be eliminated or significantly reduced buy the use of the consistent application of painful punishments.

My conclusion from this exercise is that the source of most of my disrespectful behaviors is due to a lack of emotional maturity. Some things seem to trigger a childish response in me and causes me to act in this way.