Is this really goodbye?

I never understood the feeling of falling so deeply in love it breaks you. Love that left you feeling empty, grasping for bits of affection from anyone who cared to look your way. Till one day you find that single person who makes you feel like the most amazing person in the world. Spending sweet moments together which soon fade to simple far memories. Memories that I've spent years searching for a quick fix. Running to the old vodka bottle left on the kitchen table. In hopes that once the bottle was finished my dazed glaze would see just a quick blurry figure of you, before I fall into a drunken slumber searching my dreams for simple glance of you.