reminder

reminder

virginity remains an outdated concept introduced by men who believed their touch defiled a woman.

if i don''t accept that, why did mine mean so little to me until i no longer had it?

i crave what i've lost.

innocence. a mind free of noise. the ability to quit pondering. i wish i never let a man near me.

think think think

it's loud in here.

let me out.

thinking concieves existence.

how does one stop thinking?

i felt ruined with him.

my brain grew loud, crowded; why had i disrupted my peace?

i've grown tired of trying to fix what another broke.

but it's me who lives with his destruction, so i shall continue.

i suppose a man's touch does cause a women to shrivel.

only those of evil spirit. i picked one that had been rotted on its branch, aching to fall.

his treatment of me does not effect my worth.

then why do i feel like this?

why did you do this to me?

i was happy. and you

you ruined it.

there will never be a before you ever again.

that is painful.

i don't think i forgive you yet.