A sea of darkness and a chance at light

Not again

I can't breathe again for fear a whole ocean will come crashing down on my head

For the fear I will be silenced again and thrown into a world of ever-lasting darkness

For the crumbling thoughts, that perhaps you really don't care

Perhaps you rather not care at all



Those beautiful kaleidoscopes of color that started to leak through will drift into a drab sea of gray and black

And the misery revoked will all come back in one huge tidal wave threatening to drown me again

Sweeping up and lifting me up

Throwing me back into the situation, I dug myself out of, agonizingly, step by step, inch by excruchiating inch



Climbing and clawing my way up, but silence yet again

Those rivulets of tears sweeping down my face

How could such painful agony taste so diabolically sweet

How can I not fall back into the deep clutches waiting for me to sink deeper again

Knowing this time, they will provide me no escape

How can I continue fighting, when you show that you do not care?

Will never care, when all I wanted was a little love

An anchor in the sea, someone to depend on

Instead, you are the storm willing to throw me back into the harrowing waters never to be found ever again