A NOTE

Life is all about ups and downs. Its upto us that how good we are,to deal with it. According to me everyone have a special person in their life, those special persons are sent by god just to teach us the reality of life, they show us the mirror, and tell us who we are and where we stand in life.
I also have a special one in my life.... actually, i shared two different feelings with two different person at two different phase of my life.
I don’t think the lessons are only given by the one person but, every person that exist in our life , teach us something. Its upto us that how much we are gaining from an indvidual.

Sometimes i doubt that who am i? Am i a loyal one, or am i a choosy ?
Sometimes i feel like i love everyone who loves me..but sometimes i don’t trust anyone other than myself. Maybe i am a self obsessed girl who just want to protect her mental peace and calm around. Or maybe i am a selfish and greedy girl who want people around her just for attention and only attention.

But i think there’s a problem with my luck when it comes to LOVE.
I might dated alot of guys, but noone felt like he’s the one.....when i talk about my current relationship, he’s the sweetest guy i’ve ever met but this whole week made my whole trust spoilled. I do have trust issues but noone understand that..... everyone thinks that i am overreacting about everything. But that’s me, i can’t handle those situations that relates to my heart. My luck is such an asshole when it comes to love, i give all my heart to the one i love but what they do? They break it......!
My mind always look for love but my heart isn’t, because somewhere my heart knows that what is going to happen. My mind doesn’t care about my heart at all, that’s why it keep taking chances and never care about my heart.

My heart is filled with a lot of pain and sorrows and noone can see that cuz i never give anyone a chance to recoganise or sense any sadness from me. I know i am a joyfull girl but deep down i really need someone who can erase each and every pain from me .
I am still waiting for that guy! Hope it would be YOU!