Rolls n Rounds

Chapter 1

Softly, he ran his hand through my hair. I clinged closer to feel more warmth from his body.
He whispered "I have to go now". Certainly I didn't want him to leave but I knew what was the right thing to do.
I reached out for my silk robe to put on, walked him to the door and said goodbye.
Oh how much I loved Bob.
He loved her too.
He loved her in her good days and bad days.
He loved her even without her say.
He loved her weird.
He really did care.
This is the girl he was going to wed.
Bob couldn't wait!
I couldn't wait too.
I prayed endlessly for this.
This was all I wanted.
To be in love and to be loved by "The one".
Of course he was the one I was too sure.
I loved him with no reasons.
I loved him in all seasons.
Bob made this thing called "Love" beautiful and fun.


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Me: Hey my love
Bob: Hello my darling? How are you?
Me: I'm very well and you?
Bob: I'm good, I'm chill.
Me: Work?
Bob: Stressful but still kicking.
Me: You'll get through it. I believe in you.
Bob: Thank you my love. How's work?
Me: All good.
Called to check in on you. Be good, Stay safe.
Bob: I will my darling, you too. I l you
Me: Hey my love
Bob: Hello my darling? How are you?
Me: I'm very well and you?
Bob: I'm good, I'm chill.
Me: Work?
Bob: Stressful but still kicking.
Me: You'll get through it. I believe in you.
Bob: Thank you my love. How's work?
Me: All good.
Called to check in on you. Be good, Stay safe.
Bob: I will my darling, you too.

Bob????
Yes I was obsessed with him!
And he was too with me.
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Of course we had our bad times.
Times when I didn't want to do too much.
Times when Bob needed his own space.
Times where I really needed a "Me-time".
Luckily, the bad times were rare.

I loved to hit a blunt in my Me-times. It was soothing.
I would think deeper and sometimes realize things better.
I was half way out then I heard a knock on the door.
I wasn't expecting anyone but I certainly knew who it would be by this hour of the night.
I walked to the door and it was Bob.

Me: Hi
(Still at the door)
Bob: Hey. Are you gonna let me in?
Me: I wasn't expecting you but okay.
He walked straight in, heading directly to where my blunt was, Puff n Passed.
This was one of our favorite activities together. We called it "Rolls n Rounds"
I puffed and remembered in a split second that there were rules. Which was: "No dropping of the roll till the light was out".
I needed a session with him though but I was just wasn't ready. Bob knew this and wasn't willing to leave.
Surprisingly, he had an extra. Yes, this man was intentional.
Luckily for him, dinner was ready. Oh yes! But we wouldn't eat till we had a *round* off.
I was quite and so was he. There was absolutely nothing else to think of but him.
Bob: How have things been?
Normal, "nothing new" I replied. And you?
I asked him.
"I miss you" he said.
I felt nothing but guilt. I did miss him too no doubt but I just needed to figure out stuff without him.
This was meant to be my me-time I said to myself. But I couldn't help it so oh well.
I miss you too. Then I passed him the blunt to finish the remaining.
I excused myself and went into the kitchen. He followed behind. I served his food on a plate different mine. Of course I observed the frown on his face because we weren't eating together on the same plate but I didn't bother. I served myself and went back to the room.
We ate quietly but his cutleries argued loudly with his plate.
Typical Bob!
I loved to see him enjoy each meal served by me. He loved my cooking.
I didn't eat much. So I waited for him to finish up. While waiting, I stared at "my Bob". I didn't know when I had zoned out.
Babe! Becca!! He called. This was when I realized he was done with his food.
I stood up with my plates and reached out for his.
Let me, he said.
I looked at him and reluctantly agreed.
While he did the dishes, I went in for a quick bath.
I turned on the shower and stood directly under it.
This was one of those nights I let the water from my hair to my sole.
I felt so alive and free.
Alone in my thoughts, Clear and clean air to breathe. This was good for my soul.
This feeling was compared to non.
I cleaned up myself too good that i almost forgot Bob was waiting.
I turned off the shower and immediately I heard him ask
"You good in there?"
Yes I am, I replied.
I quickly grabbed my towel, wrapped it round my body and went out of the bathroom.
There he was, seated in the bed.
I walked to where my night gown was and put it on.
Bob: Are you okay?
He hugged me from behind with a sigh of relief.
I knew he felt chill from the coldness of my body.
"I'm fine" I replied him. I struggled out of his grip and went back to the bathroom to hang the towel and came out while he stood there watching my every move.
But was I actually fine??? I too didn't know.
Like I said (This was one of those days).
I laid still and quiet in the bed till Bob finished taking a shower.
I couldn't think properly. I wasn't sure why but I knew I had to fix myself immediately.
He got on the bed and moved closer to where I laid, kissed my forehead, cuddled up with me and whispered "I love you". I smiled in my drowsy thought and held him tight till I feel asleep.
Yes! This was the man I loved dearly.