The thoughts of a defeated canine

All the things you've ever gave me, I've kept and took great care of. Doesn't matter the sorrow or bitterness I feel towards you, I cherish all the memories we've made over the little time we had together. My odd mind can't bring itself to hate you, even though you have abandoned me and so clearly don't want anything to do with me anymore. I'm like a dog, who patiently waits by the door for the owner, who yells and beats it up. I'm so sorry it all ended the way it did. I'm so sorry I was annoying. I'm so sorry I was never good enough to become your first place. And after all, I don't blame you for anything. I believe there was once a time, when you cared about me. I know I always did. But that's the thing about the loyalty of one, who loves like a dog - they will stay by your side, regardless of what harm you do to them. They will put you as their number one, even if they will never be yours. The truth is, I already forgave you, even when you don't have any intention to apologize, ever. I hope you will feel regret, when you hear that I am no longer here.