I will miss you

Well, the end is near. Tomorrow will come and everything will turn to dust. Every action I take won’t matter anymore. Today marks the ending of something that didn't hold much meaning for me, but once I tried to learn about it, I fell in love with it. Now, seeing it gone, I can't help but feel regret. All the pictures with my face make me cringe and hate myself for who I am. When I see all the beautiful people around me, I feel like a burden, dumb and small. I despise how I'm ruining this beautiful moment just by existing. I know others don't really need me at all. They have a whole world without me and they are drifting away. All the people I love will be gone, and all my tears will be forgotten.
I love you guys so much, but sometimes I wish you wouldn't make me feel so special or loved because it only intensifies my pain. I hope someday I'll feel like I truly belong here, but right now I can't say that I do. Farewell to all.