No Feelings

I'm just a stupid pagan mage
Don't want no place upon a stage
Just gonna turn another page
Keep writin' about all my rage
Maybe I'll have a chance someday
To make a decent wage this way

Hahaha, what a stupid dream
Life and me we never agree
There's no place where I can be
Just me because I can't be free
My thoughts and words are too off key
Like Sia, but at least she can be redeemed
At least she sings nice, at least she's pretty
I'm just a dumb girl born in a British city

So guess this is goodbye,
'Cause I know I'll never fly
Doesn't matter how hard I try
Maybe today I take my life

My wings are already far too broken
And I keep refusin' to be a-woken
Guess that's why I keep chokin'
Not apologizin for any words I've spoken
Sure wish I had somethin' to be smokin'

In other news...

Here's my basement view of the dirt
My pile of shit, I bury my hurt
I hold my pain so deep below
Push it away in the undertow
When I'm gone you'll find the show
The seeds I left, the words I wrote
Sitting in my basement room
Maybe they will one day bloom

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